Mirror’s Eye
By Rachel Camp 04.08.2019
I glance inside the mirror’s eye
The me I hate to see
I break it down and analyze
What I was meant to be
The curves are new and scars are fresh
But they aren’t what I need
The soul inside still holds shine
For all the world to see
So what’s the burden that blocks it in?
What is this barrier surrounding me?
Are faith and hope all broken?
Is the trust all lost to me?
I take this task and fight head on
No idea where it could lead
I jump head first with no direction
I must commit to me
Fight for all that’s lost
Fight for all I could be
Fight to prove myself wrong
Fight for all I need
The mirror’s eye is deceiving
I am my own worst enemy
I have to change my point of view
I have to set it free
This soul it holds passion
This soul pleas out to me
This soul is fighting back now
This soul longs for glee
I’ll set it free and all will see
The fight
The strength
The me that I can be
My soul is coming out now
And it will be a sight to see
Before This Shine Goes Dull
By Rachel Camp 04.08.2019
Inner turmoil is like a plague of locust in my mind
Buzzing and cawing like a constant symphony of destruction
Thoughts bounce back and forth in an endless waltz of uncertainty
All tied in sequence to the piece of my heart; dangling from the eaves
Escape me, dear faith
Leave me, sweet hope
Release me from captivity as I tremble in your arms
Let go of my soul before it’s shine goes dull
Civility has been left behind and rage is all that fills the corners of this place
Creeping in on me through every weakness of my being
Seeping into every step forward I take, as if my legs were burdened by quicksand
Escape me, dear faith
Leave me, sweet hope
Release me from captivity as I tremble in your arms
Let go of my soul before it’s shine goes dull
I must find the strength I once had
I must fight with everything I have
Before this shine goes dull
I must find faith in myself
I must believe I can be
My own warrior
Before this shine goes dull
Before this soul dies
I See
Circumstances led to the fall in me
By Rachel Camp 04.08.2019
The captivating, all equating, lack of empathy
You fed me lies and said goodbyes
Like I was some fool who couldn’t see
Your heartless words were smoke
But never screen to me
I see the you that sees me
I see the pain you hide beneath
I see the path you hope is false
And all the ache you know you caused
Take me for a fool no more
Circumstances and coincidence leap from all you are
You say you’re not but plea you are and it’s an endless cause
I see the you that sees me
I see the pain you hide beneath
I see the path you hope is false
And all the ache you know you caused
My chances were taken; my soul mistaken
My perception skewed to those left unscathen
You had your chance and made your choice
No mind paid rent to me
My time has come and now it’s passed
You’ve dulled the shine, you see
I see the you that sees me
I see the pain you hide beneath
I see the path you hope is false
And all the ache you know you caused
Pretend no more
Deceive no more
I’ve got no strength to flee
Abandon all hope
Surrender my soul
You’ve lost control of me
I see the you that sees me
I see the pain you hide beneath
I see the path you hope is false
And all the ache you know you caused
Cause to Bloom
By Rachel Camp 04.08.2019
My heart is halfway broken
Ripped apart at the seams
Faith and trust a token
For which has lost its gleam
I cannot give it freely
For it will fall to ash once more
I must replace the lining
To prevent increase in score
Within myself is strength and hope
The drive to find my piece of rope
To climb this hole and emerge anew
With seams secure and cause to bloom
I take this path and take each step
For every soul with fear that’s crept
For every heart that fell apart
And every word unspoken
I cannot say where it will lead
But if you keep some faith in me
I’ll show this world what I can be
And never again be broken
Within myself is strength and hope
The drive to find my piece of rope
To climb this hole and emerge anew
With seams secure and cause to bloom
My buds with break
My life with take
This world by wheel
With time to steal
I will emerge
I will renew
I will fight long
But I will bloom
My only plea I have for thee
Is hold some hope and faith in me
With cause to bloom
I will renew
With cause to bloom
The Knight and the Beast
A Knight was once shining
In the presence of the Queen
His golden tongue and charming facade
Were simply captivating
With Bardic tune and diamond teeth
He won her heart in battle
He built her up and gave her throne
So he could sit and revelA rumored Beast had threatened
Her kingdom held on high
A foul and horrid stench he raught
Whenever he was nigh
He fought with silent blade
And tore through every foe
As if he was untouchable
A demonic force of woeThe Queen felt safe
A fighting warrior on her own
She fought her battles in solace
Sitting atop her throne
The pride she had in all her might
Was held in high regard
The progress she had led had built
The Kingdom of the BardSuch little time was spent
On the throne built of lies
Such little thought was given
To the Queen who cut the ties
Her strength and her valor held
Until the Beast was forced inside
Her head remained level
Until all hope was set asideThe Knight and the Beast
Became the same that day
As the mask was lifted
And the proof was on display
Betrayal at its finest
A performance to rue the day
The Beast shed all it’s burden
As the Queen carried it awayBeastly Knight and falling fright
A weakness only known by few
So few, in fact, that once attacked;
She knew just what to do
Her shattered heart accepted
The deceit within herself
The anchor that she laid had fallen
tumbling from its shelfSo quick she fell to the Knight
And his callous onslaught of pain
She lost all her grip and majesty
As he simply tore it away
The Queen had now conceded
She bowed before the Beast
Her faith and trust now broken
By the Knight’s poisoned feast
Her head fell low and light grew dim
On the floor at his feet
Once strong and radiant
She now was dull and weakThe Knight was all but gone now
He withered and decayed
His glimmering armor
Began to rust and fall away
Beneath the false shield
With bardic melodies he tried to wield
Was a beast of rot and poison
Whose tainted magic would not yieldHis eyes became the flame
And his smile fell astray
An empty hole at the center
Of the darkness he hid away
Lies fueled the demon
A servant to an evil force-
Whose power was deception
Through seduction and retort
The beast was but a minion
And it hit her in that fall
That any fight that she could give
Would only hit a wallA barrier of protection
Both loyal and built to stay
Magical in its purpose
but plagued with dismay
Fault within its structure
Though no weakness touched it’s might
Regret and guilt the magic
That gave it so much lightAnd from within her fall
a plea could be heard
A poem of forgiveness
in only a pair of words
As her light faded
And her final breath released
“Simply you” was uttered
in silent revelryThe Knight fights on and serves
By Rachel Camp 04.08.2019
With every passing day
But he will always remember felling
The shining soul that got away
Catalyst
by Rachel Camp 04.12.2019
Don’t sit and wait for catalyst
As your heart begins to stop
Stop planning out your 12 step list
To climb back to the top
The hammer that you need
May never seem to fall
The moment that you wait to heed
May come too late to call
Due time is what you hope for
To brave the eye of the storm
Cross off all the days gone by
And add them to your score
In those days, do you believe
That you gave it all you have?
Or were you obligated to be
More to them than what you had?
Our past can be a poison
It can taint our every thought
If it becomes the reason
It will kill all those who fought
What must now be considered
Is what their past has been
Do they hope for obligation?
Or pray for release from sin?
Is it in the heart
To wave off sullied action?
Or are the efforts torn apart
And used to hold you captive?
Before you lose the light inside
I hope you find clarity
To remain collected and decide
What reason it should be
I know you’re all alone, this time
Surrounded by what you need
Looked upon as if you chyme
With alarm at every lead
But in yourself I know you’ll find
The strength and comfort pleading
To listen to the voice inside
And not let it go fleeting
You know the dream that you deserve
You know what you can be
So take your charge and choose to serve
The only heart you need
It’s easy to get lost
In comfort and grateful notion
The harder route- is looking out
And setting forth in motion
Allow yourself forgiveness
And anchor deep inside
Find your soul so cold in there
And let it step outside
If, in your heart, you can take
These chances and this leap
I know you’ll be the catalyst
You long for in your sleep
